nth can express my emotions now,

i'm really really at a lost,

tears fill up day by day,

but they don't seem to flow...



does this mean that i have to continue suffering this hurt?

does this mean that i have to continue lying to myself?

when will the day come when i can juz cry the way i want,

be it for sadness or juz because i'm in pain?



everyday i try my best,

but always end up failing,

I use to think it was all part and parcel of life till,

i realised that i never succeeded before,



so i gave up.



each passing day,

is just but another day of unspoken thoughts.

each passing day,

is just but another day wasted away.

when will the day come?



darkness overlooms and,

i turn around in bed.

thinking,

thinking..



just to hope to have a glance,

in that imaginary world of mine again

but,

it is all but just a dream,

unrealistic.



so i gave up.